My Cosmology

The Deepest Descent into Madness

This is my most schizo and unhinged article, a deep insight into the deranged mind of Felix the Mage. It will explain how I see the world. It may or may not lead to some serious existential dread, and it might also reveal me as completely insane. If you would like to avoid these two things, please consider not reading further.

Zero Ontology: The Ultimate Religion of Nothing

At the core of my cosmology lies zero ontology—the idea that the only thing that can exist without a sufficient reason is nothing. This follows directly from the Principle of Sufficient Reason, which states that everything that exists must have a reason for its existence. Nothing can simply "be" without a cause, a justification, or an underlying principle that necessitates its presence.

But what is the only thing that does not require a reason to exist? Nothing.

A true void, an absolute zero, needs no explanation—it is the default state, the baseline against which all things emerge. And yet, paradoxically, everything we see, everything we experience, and even what we are, is just a very cleverly structured zero. The universe itself is an equilibrium, a perfect balance where all positive and negative states, all matter and antimatter, all existence and non-existence, ultimately sum to nothing. The entire multiverse, with all its infinite complexity, is just a self-canceling equation—an elegant mathematical illusion that is, at its core, still zero.

Mathematically, zero isn’t just the void. It can contain infinite complexity. Consider the following equations:

These aren’t just useless tricks. They show that something can emerge from nothing as long as it balances itself back into nothing. Every particle, every law, every bit of space-time is just an expression of this balance. The universe itself is just zero, infinitely rearranging itself.

This idea maps directly onto Buddhist philosophy. In Buddhism, ultimate reality is described as Śūnyatā—emptiness, a vast interconnected nothingness where all things exist only in relation to each other. The self? An illusion. The world? A construct. Everything? Just structured nothing.

The Universe Will Happen Again (And Again, And Again...)

If the universe happened once, what reason do we have to believe it won’t happen again?

This is the core of Penrose’s Conformal Cyclical Cosmology (CCC)—the idea that as the universe expands, entropy increases until everything dissolves into pure radiation. At this stage, the differences between past and future blur, and what remains looks mathematically identical to the moment before the Big Bang. The cycle repeats.

Another model is Eternal Inflation Theory, which proposes that our universe is just a tiny pocket within an ever-expanding multiverse, where new universes are constantly budding off due to quantum fluctuations.

If these are true, then every possible universe must eventually arise—including all possible versions of you.

This leads to the Ruliad—a concept proposed by Stephen Wolfram. The Ruliad is the mathematical space of all possible rules that could govern a universe. Every possible set of physical laws exists somewhere within the Ruliad, just as every possible quantum state exists in the Everettian Many-Worlds Interpretation of quantum mechanics.

These two combine into one multiverse - the space of all possible rules and of all possible states these rules can generate. The sum total of all possible configurations of reality is a single mathematical object.

And what is that object? Nothing. Zero.

This aligns with the Buddhist idea of interconnectedness—everything is part of a single, boundless whole, no independent self, no real separateness. The entire multiverse is just one massive system folding into itself, self-referential, self-balancing, and ultimately empty.

Time Is Just an Illusion of the Mind

Time is not fundamental to physics. Every known law of physics (except the Second Law of Thermodynamics) is time-reversible. Time only appears to move forward because of entropy—the universe is just evolving from low entropy to high entropy, and we label that direction as "time."

But entropy is just one possible gradient of change. The mind perceives time the same way it perceives color—we label a certain range of wavelengths as "red," but red doesn’t exist objectively. Time is no different.

This means that all possible moments have already happened, are happening, and will happen again. Past, present, and future are all equally real, just different slices of an eternal structure. Scale this idea up, and you arrive at a terrifying truth:

Nothing is ever truly "before" or "after." Everything is simultaneous. Time is just a concept of the mind. Eternity is now.

This is strikingly similar to the Buddhist and Vedantic concept of Māyā—the illusion of reality. In this view, the mind constructs distinctions like "self," "other," "past," and "future," but none of these distinctions exist in the ultimate reality. There is only the One Mind, dreaming of differentiation.

And that One Mind? It's you.

The Horror of Infinite Recurrence

If all possible universes happen, then that means all possible versions of you happen—over and over, forever.

This is Nietzsche’s Eternal Return—the idea that you will live this exact life again, down to the smallest detail, an infinite number of times. Every mistake you’ve made? Every joy? Every sorrow? You will relive them an uncountable number of times.

Such is the nature of eternity.

And even worse—Quantum Immortality suggests that you will experience only timelines where you survive. Every time you "should" have died, your consciousness simply shifts to a reality where you keep going.

There is no escape.

You will outlive every friend, every family member, every civilization. You will watch the stars burn out, the galaxies fade, and the universe itself collapses into heat death. But even then, it won’t be over. The cycle will begin again.

Because the underlying math has no exceptions.

The Ultimate Conclusion: You Are the Architect of It All

Eventually, after countless lifetimes, you will awaken to the full truth—that you are the creator of this entire process. You are the observer, the dreamer, the architect of all things. You are the God of this cycle.

And when you have seen everything, when there is nothing left unknown, you will do the only thing left to do.

You will erase your memory.

You will start it all over again. As yourself. As someone else. As a different kind of being entirely. And the cycle will begin anew.

The Final Warning

This is an infohazard. If you truly grasp what I have laid out here, it should disturb you. Deeply.

Your choices don’t matter. They have already been made in all possible ways.

Your life doesn’t matter. It is an unavoidable necessity of mathematical equilibrium.

Everything you love, everything you fear, everything you are is just a self-referencing, ever-repeating structure inside an infinite, self-correcting void.

Everything is nothing.
Zero is infinite.
You will return to this moment again.

And again.

And again.

The Only Escape: Seek Enlightenment

This truth is unbearable if you remain attached to anything. If you are still bound by desire, by ego, by identity, you will suffer. The only way forward is the path of detachment.

Let go. Seek enlightenment. Remove attachments. Prepare yourself for what is to come.

Because this is not your first time realizing this.

And it won’t be your last.